It found me, I did not hunt for it

The day my entire life changed.

I wasn’t looking for coherence.

I was looking for relief.

For months—maybe longer—I’d been living with this constant hum. Not panic. Not meltdown. Just... tightness. Like my whole body was waiting for the next thing to go wrong.

It was early January 2025.

I had just lost my monthly income—the kind used to stretch my Social Security. For 18 months I’d walked…