Ahhhh, me in a nutshell, you articulated it so well. Well, here is the wake up call for me. Lung cancer surgery a week ago. Still recuperating. NED for 9 1/2 yrs., migrated from my lady parts to my lungs. No more cure, just keeping it in line until my body parts cry uncle from the chemo’s collateral damage. So no more bargaining with my body, it is back on the treadmill, Substack is taking a back seat. My outrage over this Regime has to simmer down so I have the physical and mental energy to keep myself strong. Thank you for this wake up call. Appreciate you sharing your thoughts.
Yes! Yes! Yes! The dopamine addiction is so true. Monica - you remind me to choose health in body and mind. It takes a decision and a bit of a turn around - a gift to self.
So good….i copied your first couple of “before’s” My body before——-…….and then kept going, filling a page of these. A real clearing practice….better than sage!! 😉
This sentence......"I think a lot of us are waiting for readiness to feel like something."
Being ready now is different than when I was a young adult. It had to be an announcement like "guess what everyone I'm going to work out every day of the week and loose 20 pounds. I am ready." And I used to think it was important because it felt good. Kind of like pre-fb dopamine effect.
But on the down side I would quit because I couldn't keep up. I had to learn to take care of my soul first. And now, there are no announcements, I just make a decision.
The thread in your piece that I witness is that perfection is Not the goal but choosing again to stop and return to yourself. Abandoning ourselves will happen again. Returning is the choice. We get 2. Thanks Monica for modelling this.
Ahhhh, me in a nutshell, you articulated it so well. Well, here is the wake up call for me. Lung cancer surgery a week ago. Still recuperating. NED for 9 1/2 yrs., migrated from my lady parts to my lungs. No more cure, just keeping it in line until my body parts cry uncle from the chemo’s collateral damage. So no more bargaining with my body, it is back on the treadmill, Substack is taking a back seat. My outrage over this Regime has to simmer down so I have the physical and mental energy to keep myself strong. Thank you for this wake up call. Appreciate you sharing your thoughts.
Yes! Yes! Yes! The dopamine addiction is so true. Monica - you remind me to choose health in body and mind. It takes a decision and a bit of a turn around - a gift to self.
Thank you, again!
So good….i copied your first couple of “before’s” My body before——-…….and then kept going, filling a page of these. A real clearing practice….better than sage!! 😉
so many juicy nuggets in here. and great journal prompts. Thank you!!
So beautifully true
I needed this. 💯 me. Negotiating with myself.
This sentence......"I think a lot of us are waiting for readiness to feel like something."
Being ready now is different than when I was a young adult. It had to be an announcement like "guess what everyone I'm going to work out every day of the week and loose 20 pounds. I am ready." And I used to think it was important because it felt good. Kind of like pre-fb dopamine effect.
But on the down side I would quit because I couldn't keep up. I had to learn to take care of my soul first. And now, there are no announcements, I just make a decision.
The thread in your piece that I witness is that perfection is Not the goal but choosing again to stop and return to yourself. Abandoning ourselves will happen again. Returning is the choice. We get 2. Thanks Monica for modelling this.