I deeply felt in my heart that I wanted to be a hippie with wild clothes, living free. But I had a baby already who was under a year-old and I thought that because of him I had to walk this straight and narrow. Of course, I realize now I could've left my damn husband and he and I and his parents and my mother could've shared the care of brian and I could've moved closer to the life I really wanted of creativity writing doing music painting. I thought I couldn't have it, but I think I could have if I wasn't so scared.
Wow. So much of this resonated with me. Tried getting pregnant before asking myself if I wanted to be a mother. (It was the seventies. Women didn't ask that question then.) Lived in rural areas for decades because it's what my husbands wanted. (I liked it but never wondered if I wanted something different...until I did.) Always had a man because my mother believed you couldn't live without one. (Have been joyously living in my own for 9 years now.)
I don’t think I’ve had my any real dreams of my own. I have copied or repeated the plans or dreams of others I loved. I’ve been a ride-along on adventures that I have enjoyed and some that disappointed. I am at a new stage of greater independence and freedom. I can trust my desires and abilities. I remain curious. I welcome the ebb and flow less scheduled time.
Monica I must ask, the sweatshirt- do you sell it? Would love to have one.
There are some priceless quotes in here that should be tshirts or wall posters… seriously
When I read you summary of the vision boarding activity I went.. omg. Everyone was cutting THE SAME PICTURES. Well, if that’s not programming what is.
Sad it takes 60 years to catch on and learn how to question their reality to surface our own.
Keep showing us how to poke the bear Monica - it’s a great catalyst to our bearing witness of ourselves . 🙏❤️🙏
I deeply felt in my heart that I wanted to be a hippie with wild clothes, living free. But I had a baby already who was under a year-old and I thought that because of him I had to walk this straight and narrow. Of course, I realize now I could've left my damn husband and he and I and his parents and my mother could've shared the care of brian and I could've moved closer to the life I really wanted of creativity writing doing music painting. I thought I couldn't have it, but I think I could have if I wasn't so scared.
Wow. So much of this resonated with me. Tried getting pregnant before asking myself if I wanted to be a mother. (It was the seventies. Women didn't ask that question then.) Lived in rural areas for decades because it's what my husbands wanted. (I liked it but never wondered if I wanted something different...until I did.) Always had a man because my mother believed you couldn't live without one. (Have been joyously living in my own for 9 years now.)
Thanks for writing this, Monica!
I don’t think I’ve had my any real dreams of my own. I have copied or repeated the plans or dreams of others I loved. I’ve been a ride-along on adventures that I have enjoyed and some that disappointed. I am at a new stage of greater independence and freedom. I can trust my desires and abilities. I remain curious. I welcome the ebb and flow less scheduled time.
Monica I must ask, the sweatshirt- do you sell it? Would love to have one.
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